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TLDR: disabled dude stuck in a debt loop, need urgent help so i can afford to start buying myself groceries again. Donation links are to the left or at the bottom of page. If you cant donate, RT'ing the OG twitter post helps, as well as commenting on the post. Thankyou

Anyway, hi. If you don't know me my name is Nebu, im a 21 year old disabled dude living in australia.

I had to be pulled out of my home due to abusive circumstances a couple of years ago and was kinda thrown fresh out into the world without any assistance. my mom knew i was disabled and was purposely making me sicker for money, and while she recieved no punishment for doing so, i was shat out into being an adult with literally no support or money to keep me going. I was lucky enough to find somewhere to live temporarily but in regards to income im sort of fighting for my life literally all the time. lol.

I suffer from a muscular-skeletal disease as well as having a non functioning immune system which means not only is my body already incredibly weak, i also get incredibly sick if i am around other people. As you can imagine, covid has kind of been a nightmare for me. I almost never get to leave my home.

The government is aware than im disabled and i have already filled out all necessary documents to prove my disabilities to them, which included paying thousands of dollars for me to see specialists, and ive been left with nothing since. Currently i only make $1200 a month in a state where the minimum wage is $3000 a month. All of my money goes to rent and i can barely afford food most months. Because of this i use an additional service called afterpay, which allows me to buy things without having to pay for them straight away. Its essentially the same as having an additional credit card.

usually this works great for me, as i pay off what i brought two weeks later when my paycheck comes in. however recently i was forced to go into a government facility to discuss disability stuff, and government workers being how they are, did not wear a mask or account for my illnesses in the slightest, and i ended up completely bedridden for two weeks. on top of that, as soon as i got better, i got sick again a week or so later due to something i still dont know. most likely mold spores in my house.

when i am sick my muscular pain increases tenfold, and during those times im unable to cook for myself or do pretty much anything. this circumstance has fucked me over COMPLETELY, as it meant i had to buy delivery food for myself for several weeks straight, which has now left me $2000 in debt. I cant afford to pay this off but for every day i dont pay it they would have added another $10 onto each meal i brought. you can imagine how quickly this debt would shoot up if i didnt pay it.

me being in this situation means ive kind of locked myself into a hellish debt loop. i pay off the debt so it doesnt increase, but then i cant afford food because i paid off the debt. which means i then have to use the debt money to buy myself food. .....and then the debt increases again and then i have to pay it off again 2 weeks later.

ive been dealing with this for like 2 months on my own now because i didn't want to make one of these cry for help posts again but im not doing very well. Theres only so many commissions i can take on at a time. And the commission costs only chip off small amounts, its never truly enough to get it all gone. I genuienly dont know what im supposed to do. I released a christmas YCH commission slot in an attempt to chip off some of it and it literally only helped me mark off a couple hundred out of the couple thousand i owe. and you guesssed it : the debt went right back anyway because i have no money for food and i had to buy food for myself again. While working on this YCH i've also overstrained my hand and injured my arm muscles by working too hard. So now i cant even attempt to collect more commissions to work because if i overstrain myself again im going to be out of service for months and i cannot afford to do that to myself.

so as much as i hate it all i can do now is ask for help again. its going to be my birthday in 3 months and i was kind of hoping to treat myself considering i dont have family or friends to spend my birthday with. if i keep at this debt im not going to be able to afford literally anything once again. more importantly though id like to be able to actually buy myself fucking groceries again without having to put myself into debt each and every time i do.

if you'd like to help, you can do so by donating via ko-fi : it takes paypal & stripe. Or if you'd like to get some art from me, i am more than happy to take on more commissions, just please know it wont be done fast. I cant afford to hurt myself again, as much as id rather this be solved by working i NEED to take it easy right now. i cant handle the stress im putting my body under.

thankyou for reading this far. i hope this is the last time i have to make one of these posts. i put in my disability documents months ago and they are stretching out the time it takes for as long as humanly possible in hopes that i either back down or kill myself before its finished. considering everything ive already gone through, i dont plan on dying just yet.

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